Thoughts | The Fault In Our Stars

Okay, here's a little know-more-about-me. I'm a die-hard movie junkie, and so is Jasper. I used to be selective with the movies I watch. Like, I never watch Disney or animated movies just because I always thought they lacked the punch or kick that I was looking for. (like an drug addict) But ever since he introduced movies like Rise of the Planet of the Apes and How To Train Your Dragon, I guess I became less judgmental about the kind of movies I'd watch.

Also, I'm in love with movies that originates from books and I like to 'spoil' myself by reading the books before I watch the movie. And then, disappointing myself by how the movie failed to meet my expectations and how it didn't exactly live up to the book. So of course, as a curious monkey, I had to go to the bookstore and get myself a copy of The Fault In Our Stars. (and spoiler alert to myself)

I was just sharing my dark side of being a movie junkie. 

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Firstly, I've never read a proper book review before nor have I written one. So I'm really just writing what I thought of the book and how I feel at the end. 

The book reminded me of A Walk To Remember. It was written by Nicholas Sparks and unfortunately, I only watched the movie and it was enough to make me sob through the later half of the movie. I guess the only difference was Augustus wasn't that healthy boy and the typical prince charming. 

After reading the book, I totally understand the tagline, "A Sick Love Story". It is really is. Like, it's just these two unfortunately kids who suffered from cancer and how they struggle with it and fall in love with each other along the way. It's a somewhat cliche love story for me and it kind of pains my heart right after Augustus told Hazel that his cancer has spread. That was totally the changing point for me. 

It sucks that it's already painful to have one person dying of cancer in the book and the author had to make it two and more and counting. It seems like the book is pretty easy to read away and finish off but it really isn't. It's so heavy! Like content-wise, oh-my-god I'm still feeling choky after finishing the book. It's sad. Full stop. 

"Can this be ever more star-crossed than this?" 

Hazel Grace Lancester

Needless to say, I love this person. The way the author described her, it makes me feel as though she was sad mostly because she couldn't bear to see others hurt, her parents if she eventually dies. To me, it felt like she accepted that death is impending and she wants to make the best of her life. 

It was honestly difficult to read and put myself in her shoes. It was painful to read about a person who wants to live longer for others (parents) and count each day as (maybe) a blessing in disguise. I do like how she's sarcastic about the whole cancer thing and how she (maybe kind of) sees through it out. Though I suspect that that would be difficult as a 16 year-old. 

Augustus Waters

What can I say? Erm, firstly, he's such a romantic. Secondly, undying love. 

It's a major spoiler to know that he also a side effect of dying. A cancer survival. I really thought he was going to be that healthy boy falls for a sickly girl type. So when he wasn't going to be that character I wished he was, I'm like, "Damn! Come on!"

"You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers."

I only realized right at the end what was the moral of the story. For me, it was being selfless and selfish at the same time. To love someone without asking for anything except to love. And to love knowing someday you'll be gone. (or eventually be) 

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Okay, I'm clearly still suffering from the side effects of this book. I know I'm probably gonna cry my (eye)balls when I see the movie because I love Shailene and Ansel (like they're my friends, no just kidding). But I'm pretty sure it's going to be heart-breaking and all that. 

I'm just gonna calm myself and maybe watch another romantic movie now. 

Tatas.